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2006-07-12 - 2:12 p.m. Well, I’ve finally started to lose a bit of weight. i am trying very hard not to sabotage all my good efforts. For every pound I lose, I have to force myself not to think of the many many more pounds I still have to go. I have also been trying to ignore how loose my pants are getting in the ass. I know, sounds weird to think of it that way…ignoring actual positive physical signs of weight loss. But I have to do it that way. Because as much as I am losing weight, and *I* know I have lost weight…to the rest of the world I am still a big fatty. Also, if I focus on how much I’ve lost, then I get sort of disappointed that the whole rest of the world doesn’t INSTANTLY see it, and be amazed by it. So…I just think to myself, “ya, I’ve lost some. Good job. Now…get over it and get on with the rest of your day”. Neat thing though…my BOSS actually stopped me today and asked if I had lost weight!!! I was kinda, “wtf?!” my BEST FRIEND didn’t even notice…but my BOSS does?!?? But hey, it was positive. So I’ll take it. Yanno what though? (and pardon me if you’ve heard this rant from me about eleventy-billion times) I hate that eating healthy food costs so fucking much!! Seriously, that pisses me off so bad! 1 bag of salad = $5. you can buy about a kilogram bag of cheap pasta for under $2. you can buy 375 g of whole wheat pasta for about $3. Kool aid is about, what, 40 cents for a LITRE? But juice or milk is anywhere from 1 to 3 dollars per litre. It’s so fucked. Just try buying food that isn’t all processed to shit and full of fat and chemicals for cheap. And we’re not even talking about organic food! And then, people have the fucking GALL to say, “well, if you’re so poor, why are you FAT? Poor people should be SKINNY” Fuck you. Know what else pisses me off? (apparently today is Bitch and Complain Day) When people (usually between the ages of 15 and 22) cop an attitude about poor people, or fat people, or whatever, and say things like, “I’m 18 and I bought my own car” or “I bought a condo by the time I was 21, so if you’re poor, it’s because you’re lazy/stupid/whatever” or “using your kids as an excuse is fucking lame! I babysit all the time and I still have time to do (whatever)!” Holy shit. 99% of the time, these kids still live with their parents. They think because they have a part-time job after school it makes them an expert on finances?? They have no spouses, no kids, and not a lot of life experience. Babysitting is NOT the same as raising your own children. Ok…so you bought your own place by the time you were 21. I hope to GOD you don’t ever get sick, or get laid off, or have your house burn down, or have anything BAD happen to you to wake you up to reality. Shit happens. Sometimes there is absolutely nothing you can do to prevent it, and then life gets hard. Just…FUCK. There is no fucking respect. And I don’t just mean, “respect your elders” either. I mean, they don’t respect ANYONE! It’s all ME ME ME. Everything is about what they want, what can they get out of it, and if anything goes wrong it’s never their fault. It makes me want to tear my fucking hair out. Honestly. But trying to explain things to them doesn’t work. Because obviously you are stupid, and they are not, so STFU, right? ::: phew. Ok. I’m done. I shouldn’t even start…cuz I just get so angry! Mostly because there’s nothing I can do to change things. Wow. And to think this whole post started off as a POSITIVE thing. That sure went to shit in a hurry, huh? 
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